Vulnerability...a good thing?
Today, I found myself in my boss' boss' boss' office balling my eyes out. Crying is a form of release for me. She is a good soul with such kindness and caring, so it was very easy to just open right up about my situation. You see there is a chance we may lose our home if the bank is not willing to renegotiate. (Always a possibility that they will.) And although my Husband went back to a day job two months ago, we've found it's still not sufficient enough to keep us afloat. We've been allowed to hold off on our mortgage for two months and we were set to start paying again at the end of December. But then 12/12/08, a Friday (a Full moon to boot), our basement (partially finished with our bedroom and living area) flooded and we were faced with significant structural damage and mold that required repair. So what's our choice. Fix the house (if the price is low enough), but not keep our home. Or don't fix the house, pay the mortgage but sleep upstairs in our living room and eventually risk more severe structural damage that will be more costly to the home. Of course we chose to fix the structural damage that denotes "tending to the roots". Then, just days after this occurred, I walked out to start my car to go to work, only to find that the high winds the night before had knocked over our basketball hoop right into my car windshield, smashing it. Lest we forget the three major car issues my Husband had to recently have fixed. I have, also, not been receiving due child support for half a year this year and all of last year. I have recently gone to court for the second time in two months with the goal of enforcing my son's father to pay his due child support. Due to schedule and children, I am only able to offer my spiritual service on the weekends. In time, it may be possible to open that up even more. But till then this is only a part-time offering that I love. It's all Divine.
Within the energies surrounding us, we are told that these things that are happening are signs of imminent change to come for us. Sometimes things like this happen to help another see what they refuse to see. The Universe will come at you in a subtle fashion to help you see, change or learn something. If you resist it by ignoring it or refusing to do anything about it, then the signs and occurrences will get stronger, more "in your face". As for us, we're told water is a sign of release. We may have things we need to release. Could be the next round of layoffs coming this month in my workplace? So a release of a job? Could be my Husband deciding to officially give up his part-time Web Design business only days after this occurred. We are not sure. But in due time all will reveal itself. If not now, maybe in a few weeks, months or years. Or maybe when we view it from the vantage point of "Heaven".
There are many facing these same issues right now, some worse and some not as challenging. I was of the hope that I would be in a different vibration so that I wouldn't be part of the "fall" that is occurring, but rather to watch the fall from an observing vantage point and assist where I could. Weren't we all. :) However, that was not our job this time. It seems that we are in the throws of this wave some are calling the fall. We may only be on the edges of it, the tip of the iceberg if you will, compared to a lot of people. But we are there none-the-less in this experience. And it is wise to know that as we go through this, it makes us stronger to assist others that also go through this. It is easier to relate to someone who's had this experience than someone who just talks about it, right!?
I had to release the attachment of my home. I had to allow what will be to be. I decided that if we lived in a cheaper place such as an apartment, that would not be so bad after all. It is still shelter, heat, home and the family love we have is strong no matter where we live. It will be wonderful no matter what occurs. :)
So I cried as a form of release. If I hadn't finally let it all in and allowed it to be what it is, then it would be a form of resistance. Crying for me is an excellent way to release. So is laughter! When I came in the house after seeing the basketball hoop in my windshield, at first I cried. Then I hugged my Husband and he started cracking up with laughter. So then it caught on. It was all so unbelievable and yet, funny. :) We just go with it and see where it takes us, while striving to remain in our inner peace and center as much as possible.
So I've had some messages and epiphany's that I want to share with you:
1. I just love Tony Robbins. He sent out a beautiful Christmas video a few weeks ago on his blog that really gives the right message. It is my *favorite* website of the month too! Go here for Tony's full video on Problems and Happiness. In this beautiful video we are reminded that we are NOT and never will be victims. We are not victims of our circumstances. And, even more important, that our problems or challenges are always going to be there. If it's not a current issue, it will be something else to go through, as a part of our life blueprint to sculpt our soul. Tony talked with a mentor of his years ago, who chatted with the Heavy Weight Champion of the World back then. The mentor asked the Heavy Weight champion how his muscles got so big. The Champion looked at him and said "Do you really want to know? Or are you just asking?" The mentor told him he really wanted to know, even though he was only asking. So the Champion said that every day he pushes against resistance, resistance so strong it is inhuman and that is what sculpts his muscles to look as they do. So then the Mentor had an epiphany. Our challenges are our resistance that push against and sculpt our soul. Our challenges are something to be grateful for, because God gave us this challenge to do something great with. Look that challenge square in the face and love it. Embrace the problem and work through your challenge as best you can!
For me in this particular situation, leaving is easy. It's easy to just say, okay we gave it our best shot with our first home and move to a cheaper place. It's easy to do that. That's what I do best. But now I am giving it a go. I am rising up to the challenge and doing my best to work with all the options available to us. I am working with our bank to see if they are also willing to rise to the challenge and work with us. I am seeing what other options are out there for assistance of any kind. I am doing all I can to bring in the income from any direction that works and that is divinely guided for us. Case in point, I offer my spiritual classes and services as often as possible. I love my classes and the students that come to me are always perfectly aligned with the classes and myself. They are all each unique and beautiful. And I thank them for allowing me to be that channel of information and service for them. It is my passion to do so, and if I am aligned with my passion the Universe always says "Thank you" by supporting us. So I stay aligned with my passion and with the current energies as much as I possibly can. My husband is a stubborn fighter. He'll stick it out as long as he can make it work. We will do our best and we will be open for change if that is what is next in our path. If we are meant to move, then we move. But we will give this challenge (and future challenges) our best effort first. And then if we move, we will be open. As much as we can muster, we will allow the sculpting of our soul to occur with grace.
2. So what do we do. What now? I don't have the magic wand answer. But I can tell you a theme that keeps coming to me from many sources and from that small voice within me. Remain in the present moment. Always remain in the present moment. Always know that within the present moment there is joy. There is peace. There *is* bliss. No matter the circumstances that surround you, there is a place within you that always remains untouched; un-scathed by the external issues. A place that is sacred, special and beautiful. I've found this peace, this bliss, even now. Especially now. Your soul is even better off as you live and love the present moment, no matter what is going on in your lives or those around you. You can have that place within you, no matter what, at any time, in any moment. Even when you are on the brink of falling apart. Even through your beautiful tears of release while in an office with your boss. As you come to a quiet moment within and simply step back and witness the experiences around you, you will feel that still peace and bliss that is you.
"I am the one who no longer needs. I am simply the one." ~ Matt Kahn, True Divine Nature
Find peace in this moment/challenge/etc. And it will leave for another beautiful moment. Do not focus on what's being manifested. Do not ask yourself questions of why did you attract that. That focus only opens you up to more grief and more manifesting of ups and downs. Just see the peace, beauty and bliss within you and around you. And you are there in peace and bliss now and for future moments. It's easier than we make it. It's simple. So simple our ego likes to get in the way with mind thoughts and fearful thinking. Forget mundane thoughts. Breathe and be in the present moment.
"By releasing your attachment today to the outcome of any stressful situation, you allow yourself to focus on the present and go with the flow of life." ~ Daily OM
3. Vulnerability is a good thing? Seriously, being vulnerable is not a bad thing. It is truly something we all go through and learn from. We can be on either end, the person going through it (*not* a victim, by the way) or the person observing it. The person going through it can take the stance of "poor me" and be the victim. This is a very low 3D reality way of being. We are rising above this stance and realizing we are NOT victims of our circumstances. We have been brought to it via our thoughts and/or as a part of our blue print contract with the Divine. It is always meant to be. All of our circumstances are mirrors being reflected back to us of what is inside us. As they are in our face, we learn from them, process them, integrate and transmute them. Not only that but this is yet another lesson of surrendering ALL attachments and allowing what will be to be.
We can also be the observer of another going through a vulnerable situation. The observer is not only able to learn from another going through this, but also have the option of taking it a step further and offering assistance to the person vulnerable. Now this is not to say that the observer *has* to help or *has* to feel they should help. Sometimes their role is actually to simply watch and learn from another's experiences. Sometimes their role is to allow another their experience in this vulnerable state and maybe just simply be there for them. And often times there is an inner prodding that pulls the observer to naturally give of themselves and what they can offer the person in this vulnerable experience. We are all connected and part of Source. To give brings about good higher vibrations to all. We come together in unity and raise the consciousness of the world, one giving act at a time. The giver receives so much more energetically through the act of giving. It is an amazing feeling. So there is a fair amount of true discernment at the soul level for each person and their role for every situation. Always go with your heart. That still small voice within will always hold your true nature and your true divine plan.
So I share my story not as a method for all of you to see me as a victim. That would be adding to the energy of victim mode and we don't want that lower vibration. It is to offer you an actual example of experience that will help you see and feel the experience yourself and integrate the learning on many levels for yourself. And so you can relate it to your own experience. I share it so that you can see the *many* layers of lessons that can be felt from a vulnerable state. Not only from the vulnerable persons' stance but from the observer of this situation. We all learn valuable lessons as we unite. Had I not gone through this experience I would not have been able to write this particular newsletter. I know some people find financials to be personal issues and remain quiet about them. However, I am an open book. I offer my situation in order to assist others.
Money is money. It is energy to be honored no matter the form. And if you don't receive money as a way of payment for your service, move forward and receive a service for a service. Soon we may trade food for service. In times to come we may barter as a way of living. Each of us offering our unique offering to the world and living in harmony. Till then we give where we can. We may learn from such children as a local boy of 10 or 11 that gave all of his Christmas presents to children affected by Hurricane Katrina. If each of us gave to a stranger truly in need rather than buying another retail gift for our family every Christmas, the world may come into better balance. Doing this as often as possible all year long can bring the world in balance. Rather than having such a strong contrast of the very wealthy to the very poor, we can all be in harmony and work together. As we ascend the new vibrational reality ensues.
'tis the season for giving and receiving, for gratitude and renewal - and for allowing others their process. Time and experience changes all things, especially people. Give 'em a chance, and look for the good in them when you remember to - it helps them to see it in themselves, just by your bearing witness. ~ *hugs!* :) Dawn, www.AwakeningwithDawn.com
Any person in a "like" situation can and will learn many lessons. We learn to ask for help when we truly need it. And we learn to receive help when it's offered. We take away our pride (another ego layer) and receive love from another. We allow others IN. We learn to be grateful for what we do have. And we learn to put forth more effort for our manifestations and what they truly should be in any given moment. (From a home to a job, etc.) We learn not to squander our money or efforts on things that are not necessary. We learn by experiencing this situation and therefore understand how others in this situation feel and maybe give more because of experiencing it first hand.
I am grateful for my healthy kids and our beautiful family. I am grateful for a generous family that helped us offer our kids a full Christmas; more than I ever thought possible this year! The layers of lessons that occur are insurmountable. We go through our challenges and face them head on as much as we can. Those around us learn to appreciate what they have just by hearing of our experience. They/we learn to be more giving and learn many other internal lessons from this mirror reflection. We all work together in our own way from wherever we are in our ascension process on the Ascension Ladder. It is ALL Divine. We learn that we are not and have never been separate from God/Source/The Divine. We are One and as we all work together we bring more light and higher vibrations to each and every one of us. Our Universe shines.
"We rejoice with all who are rejoicing, and to all who are feeling sad or anxious, we say: Take comfort in knowing that as these days pass into the new calendar year, if you allow the ever-increasing light to lift your spirits, it also can strengthen your resolve to deal with your personal situations." ~ Suzy Ward, Messages from Matthew, www.matthewbooks.com
Whatever happens now is for our growth, our potential as a unique soul of the Divine. Whatever happens now is Divine. Whatever happens now is all we have. So I am striving for living in the Now. Blessings to you all in this beautiful new year of 2009!
Enjoy, live, laugh and love always!
Follow your bliss,
~Spiritual Cheerleader
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Bliss for you all in 2009! I hear this is a whopper of a year. 2+0+0+9 = 11. This 11 year is a master number, so a master year. Mooch-o change for all. Some good, some challenging, some seemingly negative, but again it is the catalyst for change. You can be in your bliss during these times. See my article below for more. In either case, we are all going through this with each other. So make it as happy as you'd like it, and so it is. Bring out the Master in you. That is one of the many reasons we are here, afterall. 
Matthew, Tell Me About Heaven
